I am the Terrestrial Gate to this journey. My name is “Karanlık”. I am also endlessly open to everyone and everything. Please keep in mind that the route behind me is dark. There are certain rules and conditions in this travel mostly rigid,not modifiable and some of them may come disturbing/uneasy. Nevertheless, for some of you facing with them may help you to see yourself better which may mean being more comfortable with yourself hereafter. Provided that, the more load (memories, desires, regrets, shames, unpleasantness etc.)you get, the better it will be within your journey. Wherever you wish, you can get rid of your loads. If You wish to get in, please do come in… (Pls Check your feelings inside!)
If you see me, it means that you got into the Karanlık Gate. I am the story teller here. Please proceed…
Shehe was at the purgatory between sleep and being awake and found herhimself in pure darkness. Shehe tried to move to the right and left, raised herhis hands, with a hope that there would be a wall or a household goods to touch. Shehe could not find anything to touch. It was almost impossible to figure out that being in or out of the house. All of a sudden a fear raised from inside instantly covering the whole body as a very tiny fire coming up on a wire and start running without knowing where to go, even not seeing one step further in front. Shehe feels that they were coming. They were seven. Shehe stopped and listened. There was a complete silence as such an insect wriggle could be heard easily. Shehe already knew that this was not rational but not possible to avoid the feeling of danger was coming closer. Shehe started running again. Now the surface was over and started falling down to emptiness quite fast. Shehe wanted to scream but herhis voice did not come up. While shehe was wondering when to hit the ground screamed again and this time succeeded. With herhis own scream became awake, and sweated like a horse…
I am your shadow side. The more you deny me, the more effective I am. I like the most staying in your subconscious. I am much more powerful than you think. Most of your unconscios -let’s say- bad actions are driven by me. The more you become familiar to me, the better you will control yourself. How will You do this? You will find the best way for yourself to handle. But first, I may kindly propose you to become aware of myself (as your shadow side). Good luck…
I am the fear. I will not define myself that I am sure you know me. It is quite natural, from time to time feeling myself inside yours. As it is known that, I was a matter of issue for thousands of years. Sometimes I find myself even useful for you in case of “figt or flight” -mostly dangerous- situations. Perhaps you already know that, you are not running because of me, on the contrary you are feeling me because you are running. May I suggest two questions to cope with myself if you find them worthy? Am I real? (Sometimes I may come along with the anxiety which may be generated by redundant thoughts and feelings) Are you able to face with me? (Another way of saying is that are you aware of me and can you able to dare for facing possible loss/losses?)
Since you have started discussion with the fear about me (anxiety) I think it is my turn to take the floor. The main reason of my existence I believe, living in the future with negative thoughts. We are not speaking about the real conditions here. I like very much to be nutritured with additional thoughts and baseless stories. Once I come to you, you will dive in me deeper and deeper. It may not be easy but can you try to come to NOW!? Heyy Am I clearing away? Don’t do this to me!
Story teller speaks: Sorry… “Have you ever thought about your death? This is an example of what will happen after buried?” I guess you do not need further comments here. So I will kindly try take you previous phases to think.
I am the “Death…”
Self Interrogation Before Death
Story teller speaks: This is also another tasteless area but in some sense, it may be considered useful. Sorry to say that but, eventually you will exercise this. Nobody can make sure that whether this interrogation will and how happen or not but, not very often though, even let’s say very rarely to exercise this while living may help you to realise where the real values are, to assist finding your ownself etc… It is entirely up to you…
… while leaving the body
Story teller speaks: This is one of the most uncertain areas to discuss depending on your belief systems, logic, acceptance etc… So, I do not foresee any practical use of discussion in depth, but very briefly we may speak about this: Even you continue in a different form of energy (your soul) you are not yourself anymore like you were in your body. Therefore, may I suggest that; while you are in your body, live your life fruitful, productive with full of goodness, to the extend possible, which doing so is your most essential living mission for yourself and the loved ones; against all the challenges…
Story Teller speaks: This is greed. Greed is made of ego sourced excessive desires for more than needs generally comes along with obsession, works on unsatisfaction cycle. The more it takes, the more it wants. It may be a good indication for not being intact in personality. Lots of reasons can be listed (childhood, family education and treats, personality, individual and social paradigms, motivations etc…) The key issue here is the needs. Are these real needs or needs created with the desires of possession and/or perception driven by the society and/or market? For the material things, it can be said: whatever you do possessed without using it, is excessive. (You can not ride two bicycles at a time.) In social and/or psychological areas, greed becomes much more complex and complicated. In fact the material one is not seperate from these latters and they work all together. (Management desire along with hunger for power, trying to effect other people, need for feeling good on an artificial base etc…) We can leave all of these to the experts in detail. The key here is: If the person is not aware of herhis greed while shehe is trying to consume -regardless of the income proportion- more than the real needs, shehe consumes herhis life within limited lifespan. When this had been understood, it might be too late to return.
The kingdom of loneliness. There is a king only…
Leaving the world with all your greed, -even your sceleton stuffed with golds and diamonds- will not make a tiny difference at the end against all the efforts (mostly negative in essence) given. You will not be remembered with the consequences and results of your greed (let’s say wealth and properties) but the contributions you have made to the others by all means.
Story teller speaks: This is wrath. It is also called anger. Anger is a way of giving importance to yourself via aggression. It is a choice of yours.This may not be easy though, you may prefer not to be angered whatever the reason is if you can let go the need of being important. Being valuable (you are already valuable because you are unique) is different from being important. Try to be important is seeking the value to be given- indirect approval. Being valuable is being equipped with the virtues universally known (i.e being honest, ethical, tolerant, kind, helpful etc..) and approval is not needed. Their existence or vice versa speaks itself. So far we are still at the level of awareness… will continue..